Getting Primed

My passion for photography is going strong each day especially when I am living in a house where there are freaks like me as well.

Once in a while, when we’re free, we’re off for so-called photo jog which we ripped the idea off from the movie, Yes Man. It’s fun and very heart warming when I see people that have passion in photography going out together, scattered around the place and taking photos. What’s even more exciting is that we will be having this monthly photography competition.

Recently, due to some incidents, I do feel a lot of pressure in this passion. Acknowledgement happens upon the others which I love to see everyone improving, but somehow I’m being forgotten. I do doubt at my own skills at times. This need of appreciation is strong but after started reading Purpose Driven Life, I feel better. I realised that this temporary temptation is nothing compared to eternity in heavenly kingdom.

Lord, remind me how brief my time on earth will be. Remind me that my days are numbered, and that my life is fleeing away. (Psalm 39.:4)

Why? Why should I fret? Why should I dwell on these unhappiness that have indirectly dragged me along my life and delayed my real purpose on this land? God loves me and I know it truly from my heart. It’s time for me to rise up and win more people for Him within my life span.

I need to be free again..

There is a place I call my own
Where I can stand by the sea,
And look beyond the things I’ve known ,
And dream that I might be free.
Like the bird above the trees
Gliding gently on the breeze,
I wish that all my life I’d be
Without a care and flying free!

But life is not a distant sky
Without a cloud, without rain.
And I can never hope that I
Can travel on without pain

Time goes swiftly on its way,
All too soon we’ve lost today.
I cannot wait for skies of blue
Or dream so long that life is through.

So life’s a song that I must sing,
A gift of love I must share .
And when I see the joy it brings,
My spirits soar through the air.
Like that bird up in the sky ,
Life has taught me how to fly.
For now I know what I can be
And now my heart is flying free!

Hot & Cold

It has been a while since my last update. You do not know how much I’ve went through recently.

Firstly, it was the crazy weather of Melbourne. No, I’m not exaggerating. It can be really cold in this minute and without you noticing, the weather goes really hot. Anyhow, it was last week weather that burned so much here. It went up to 40-45 something constantly for a couple of days, ended up writing off the previous hottest week. Now, the craziest part is this. It was 46.4 last Saturday. That was the hottest day ever here.

Melbourne definitely loves me a lot, by welcoming me with such weather. I appreciate it but please show some mercy on me!

Be that as it may, I’ve been trying to settle down here. I’m not quite used to walking that much in my life. I’m lazy, admitted. But walking this much in a day is crazy. Now, I really miss my car in Malaysia. It would be nice if I win a lotto here or something. Then I would probably get a car, even a second hand car would be good.

Other than that, every other things seem to be alright. Uni life is good, classmates are mostly China chinese which are rather ‘loud’. Yes, never have I met so many China chinese in a place before but they’re very friendly or should I say.. passionate. Church is good, mostly Malaysians and mostly SIBUANS! Hahax, it’s really nice to have these seniors to guide you when you’re in a new environment. It’s a great aid to try to adapt into this life.

2008 < 2009

2008, it’s a year of roller coaster for me. I never thought that I would experience that much of differences in my life this year.

It’s a year that I first experienced the lifestyle of being close with my girlfriend, Jaclyn’s family; Jaclyn left Malaysia & we started long distance relationship (LDR); 3 times admission to 3 different hospitals because of my newly diagnosed Immune Thrombocytopenic Purpura in 3 different months, and finally the decision to study in Australia earlier which until today, I haven’t got my student visa yet. Anyhow, 2008 is coming to an end and a few days later, we will be celebrating for the new year, 2009.

Do you guys know why the arrow is not pointing from 2008 to 2009? It does not mean that we are not moving toward 2009 but it means that 2009 is greater than 2008. We should be certainly celebrate the end of 2008 because next year, 2009 will be better!

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? (Matthew 6:25)

Good & Bad News

A good news and a bad news. I’ll start with the bad news.

Apparently,  I am still in Malaysia because I haven’t got my student visa yet! So, I’m not flying to Australia yet which is seriously devastating to me. I’ve changed my flight to 7 January 2009 which is only a day before my class commences.

I’m worried.. and at the same time, furious about it. The delay is mainly because I have medical history. ITP is the cause but what can I do? I can only pray and wait patiently everyday. Hopefully, it will be done in time. Sigh.

As for the good news, well…. my platelet count is at 185K now. That is above the minimum count 150K-400K. Under my doctor’s advise, I’ve reduced my prednisolone dose to 10mg per day which is good. I can’t wait to live my days without these medication!

Very soon, I’m sure.

It is just a matter of time!

Time does sail. It has been ticking off unnoticed. All these while, everything seems to be a blink of an eye. It has been a while since my first admission, in fact.. never in my life I’ve been admitted like that. 3 admissions because of the same case. Hat-trick? Stupid enough for me.

Anyway, do you think that doctors are all reliable? To me, not all but what can you expect from a hog but a grunt? Nevertheless, I still have to thank all of them, though some tried to take advantage on me in order to earn a little bit more. (Not going to name anyone though)

You see, there’s a popular saying goes like this.. “money is not everything“. I agreed. Money is definitely not everything but still, it is something. Something that we all need in this world. With money, everything seems to be a little bit easier.

And if there is a choice in life to be either rich or poor, that will be most unbalanced poll ever. Everyone seems to be looking for something that is money for jam. Plus, the current world economy. It’s crazy if you look at it. One day up, two days down.

And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:19)

I believe that we should trust God more. That is one thing that is lacking in this world. Not everyone trusts Him, in fact not everyone is willing to believe His existence. To me, no matter how bad the financial crisis is, God will still supply. I need money too but I remain faithful that He will provide. It is just a matter of time. If I can choose to be happy today, why not?

So do not worry about tomorrow , for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matthews 6:34)

ITP: Improving

When I was first diagnosed with ITP, what I could see was a narrow glimpse of hope for my platelet counts to increase because it would be dropping no matter what I tried. It was really devastating to see the trend went up and down. No fun, really. I would be checking my whole body to see whether I have new bruises or cuts all of the time. Not only that, I had to face a lot of weird questions and also the despiseful sights from the others. Nature of human.. they dislike patients or the other phrase, they’re afraid that they’ll be infected too.

Anyhow, I am really excited about my recent reports. On the 30th of October, I had 82K of platelet and that was when I reduced the dose from 40mg to 30mg. It was certainly inspiring as the highest count that I had was around 50K. And guess what….. on the 13 November, I have 156K!!! That is above the minimum count! I was on the cloud nine! Truly blessed! Glory to the Lord!

Now, I am taking 20mg a day and hopefully my platelet will survive and stay above the minimum count!

What Do You See?

Every photographer has their own preferences and glued styles. Some take advices and make changes to their works but there are also those that just stick to what they do. A picture taken through the lens can tell countless versions of stories. It is just matter of what you see.

For all that, do you ever wondered what the image would look like before they’re shown to you? Chances are almost every single photos taken nowadays are being ‘photoshop-ed’ before being displayed. Even without the help of software, it can be manipulated by the photographer’s mind on the camera itself.

What a photographer wants to cut off, what to include, or which angle through the lens, and the settings of the photo are enough to tell a single piece of image with a numbers of different story. Anyhow, here comes the tricky part. Do photographers need to be real with their photos?

I, myself couldn’t answer that. But as long as it is oriental, why the fuss?

A Day to Remember

5 November 2008

Yes, this is the date to remember!

WHY?!

No, not Anwar.

But it’s because White House is turning black starting today!

O for OBAMA!

New Home

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